although i keep forgetting it is valentine's day, as the romantic nature of my experiences tomorrow will peak at kamaria and adam baz, (not they aren't romantic creatures, of course) the internet has now taken upon itself to remind me of the fact that i will not be celebrating this hallmark holiday once again through both google and friendster's nauseautingly pink template. i did, however, send out my electronic valentine tonight and as a result i am now experiencing the ever predictable post initiation of expression of any sort of romantic sentiment anxiety and cannot sleep. instead, i have been alternately doing chemistry and cracking software.
my mind also keeps spinning around my experience this weekend, at the amazing certainty with which i handled myself in a completely unstable situation. i have again learned to trust my inner voices, and not only that, i'm actually starting to take my own advice again. though my inner voice does tell me that having in internet journal is rather strange in an intangible sort of way, the destruction of my diary in last nights, in combination with the amount of time i spend sitting in front of this damn machine (which i'm pretty sure owns my soul by this point) it seems to make sense that a 'blog' was an inevitable course of action.
i don't know if that story i've been working on is going to make it through. i'm not sure if i can pull of second person narrative without alternating it with third person which seems like a cheap way out.
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